﷽ Lately, I’ve been noticing how heavy it feels when I try to study in this strict, step-by-step way. Like when I sit down with the Quran, telling myself I must go verse by verse, tafsir after tafsir, without drifting. It’s as if the more I force the process, the more my mind starts to resist. I lose energy, and what started as something beautiful begins to feel like a chore. But when I give myself permission to move more freely — to pause on one verse because it really touched me, or to skip ahead to a surah I’m craving, or even pause to memorize a few ayat that felt special — the weight lifts. The enthusiasm comes back. It’s like my mind and heart are asking for that space to breathe, to move between deep and light, hard and easy, without guilt. It makes me think of the verse: 'So recite what is easy for you of the Quran.' (Surah Al-Muzzammil, 73:20) There’s so much mercy in these words. A reminder that the Quran isn’t meant to be a burden, but a source of ease, taken in according to what we’re able. Maybe it’s okay to follow my own rhythm in learning, and to trust that even the small parts I manage are valuable. And I remember the hadith where the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: 'The most beloved deeds to Allah are those that are most consistent, even if they are small.' (Sahih al-Bukhari, 6465) Ya Allah, make my learning easy and beloved to my heart. Keep me connected to Your words with consistency and sincerity. Protect me from heaviness and make every effort count with You. Ameen.

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Shamsa1y ago

Jazaak Allah khair

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